A sickness of the heart
and the soul
it eats away at the very fabric
of my existence
to the very core of me
insatiable
doubt can be that way
I can not erase
or even heal
the harm it causes
I want so much to believe
in a vision of such light
complete wondrous glory
yet I feel unworthy
then come the doubts
so much hidden pain and anger
how can one so selfish
be allowed into the light
I feel a great power
pulling me towards something
away from the darkness
toward you